I fell off the wagon regarding my former squeeze. I know that it shall not do. But yesterday it hit the spot. I am a hypocrite for sure. As my main focus was self fulfillment, even if in a small way. This side of myself is a head shaker. One moment I find that I am steady and clear, and then at other times, I seem to be courting a 'bad' girl vibe.
Even with what I am learning, I find this side of myself coming out in baudy humour. What is all of this about? Somehow I cant feel too guilty as it is all part of me. I am curious to see where this is all leading me.