Pure

There was a point where I had a hard time reconciling whether my life would mean anything without certain things that I saw as symbols of success and happiness. But lately,with patience and a greater awareness of other ways of seeing, I know that i was boxing myself in. Also, part of my brief system had a lot to do with my experiences and the environment. I now have a completely different view on what was once a conundrum. Now I see the opportunity to make of my life whatever I choose to make of it. I do not have to fit in...hell, I never fit in anyway, so to have had this stump me is truly odd of me. I recall several years ago when a favorite tree in Ellerslie was cut down, I felt bereft. It has also happened with a few historical landmarked houses as well. One day they are here, and like no bodies business, gone the next. That helped put into perspective my nostalgia. Last week, The Towers invited me to his second home in the hight of The Valley. It was an amazing experience. For the first time I chose to suspend any expectations and enjoy being in the moment. He seemed to feel the same way because everything was easy going with o pressure whatsoever. I was so grateful for that. But more importantly, because for once it felt like two friends enjoying the environment, I felt completely liberated and more so,mentally free. It got me to thinking that that is a big part of being successful in life...letting go of expectations and allowing things to unfold naturally. Of course their are times when only a hustle or determination can move things to their expected progress. The opportunity to shake the cobwebs out of my head and to enjoy pure air and spring water did me a world of good.