Living up to the inside

A former student of mine has had a mini crisis about her way forward as an Artist. Listening to her, I have been able to look at her from the outside. She is feeling dispondent but she has so much going for herself. But the thing is, we all reach to that conclusion at times. No amount of prodding and complements can make someone feel anything else. So there comes a moment where you just have to realise that that person is going through something very personal for themselves and they may or may not get through it. This I find is the same for my ex-husband who has arrived back in Trinidad and has resumed things in his apartment. I have thus returned home, and now I am in the process of straightening out my space again. I have quite a few things to be done. We have a two day holiday coming up and my darling shall be spending it with me. He claims that he has no intention of going back, but that he wants to immigrate to Canada after our daughter finishes school. That is in late 2025. She has other plans, and she and I have gone over what she shall be doing from now to then and our focus is on getting her to where she wants to be. He of course has come back pretty much as he left...blaming me for everything that he feels he has not achieved, including now wanting to sue both me and my mother for ruining his life. This would be funny if only he were not so sad. I feel bad for him as our daughter sees right through him and is aghast at his antics. Anyway, we have our plans and we are moving on.

New ventures

Lately I have found my mood challenging enough for me to do the necessary thing. which is to be patient with myself and ask what's going on. This sort of thing feels like I am talking to a child, which I am. Lol. But, yes, I have been frustrated more than ever with seeing the end to my some of my personal projects. I have just completed a three document project and I was very pleased with the outcome. Yet, I am antsy about wanting to get to the next thing. As I am writing, I just realised why I feel this way. I am getting closer to the time when I start working on my personal projects. So of course I want to get going. So it should be as no surprise that a new project has raised its head and as always I have followed it like a dog follows a bone. I know how to go about making theis project happen, and I have begun it with information I already have. I have also given myself a deadline, so I am feeling very good about this one.