When your smiling the whole world does smile with you

Having been closed off from intimacy for so long, now that I am being impacted with it in writing by an interest so far away, I feel an opening up for myself.
I have a private smile, a bouncier step. There is something to be said for joy. This brings me a pleasure that is unexpected, and such a buzz. I find that thinking on this has done so much for me in the last few weeks. It has helped tremendously to take my mind away from the trivial nonsense of the day and the absurdity of my ex.
Where this shall lead I do not know. All I can say or know is that it feels wonderful to smile and have a private knowing.