Ever so often I feel blue...although I am aware that it does not last long. For example tonight my little one was studying my fingers as I put her to bed. So that helped me feel less down.
I suppose that it is only natural to feel this way when someone I have known all of my adult life now has walked away and not looked back.
The person I used to know would never do this. It makes me wonder what could be in such a mind? Is it that he is so steely that he could just forget with ease all the good and the great things of the past so very easily? I do not know anyone who can do that? Or even if he has gone away still justifying his rage, surely he should be able to see that it is not worth it?
What it tells me is that I probably never knew him at all? I know that I should not encourage this funk, but it all feels so wasteful, all that has gone on, wasteful to have done all that he did? For what?
Will I ever know and do I really want to?
Perhaps if I had had a different story by now, some new person in my life to distract me, I would not be feeling this way? Possibly?
Thankfully these moments dissipate quickly, and I move on to all that I am o thankful for now and for the future. I also suppose that the funk is there to remind me of better and better feelings around the corner.