New, new beginnings

Today I did some startling things. I de-activated two sites that I have online. It was suggested to me that I stop a writing site that I had become a bit fond of. This had happened because I thought that it was of value. I was not wrong about this, but I was diluting my own value by doing it. What I mean by that is that I had promised myself that I would focus on my own work, and this was one of many distractions.
I see now that I deliberately do this. I have it worked out so well that I can convince myself that doing this is ok. I can juggle nine balls in the air.
But even if this is completely true, at the end of the day, I still do not satisfy what I intend ultimately.
There is a whole body of really strong work that I have in books that I cannot work on because the next idea takes small bits of my time.
I didn't see this.
I was too busy thinking that all the other things were important too. They also disguised themselves as such.
This was not easy to do.
To admit that I was not as important as I felt I was.
This makes me laugh now.
Laugh out loud.
With all the things online, what I was ending up doing was spreading myself even thinner and thinner with more and more useless shit!
But even worse, thinking that they all mattered.
This sort of all or nothing is new for me.
But for now....it rocks!