Already the year has begun for me with much to contemplate.i am very busy, so that has been really good where I might have observed differently. I am doing well with my focusing on better and stronger thought forms. Particularly as one person in my life helped me so much with that. Michael was such a horses ass, trying to play me against our mutual superior with a project that I am doing now, that all I could do was see the demerit of his stupid actions . This is someone I have known for decades and have only ever helped and wished the best. So imagine my shock when our mutual colleague voluntarily tells me that Michael wrote him a letter criticizing me about a past project that I actually invited him to participate in. Anyway, enough about him. He did me a great favor. I got to see myself from a position of strength. The other matter is a personal focus of mine that I am wavering about in an odd way. I have written many times about wanting my ex husband to be more respectful and the like. He has proven to me that he is trying. But I have my moments where I fall into suspicious and angry me around him. He helps of course, because we both know how to provoke the other. How can I constantly state that I want certain things and then act in a contradictory manner. Surely I have to see the forest for the trees? So, I am working on myself more.