Two things this week

One....reading an old diary from three decades ago and then...TWO...with the cleaning up,coming across endless bank statements and old journals and realizing that no matter how excited you get about the things you buy,either because you have a desire for them or that they are practical purchases, everything ages. Everything becomes a space in the negative spaces around your home. The many, many shoes I have, they are all just lined up. My clothing are hanging in the closet like I left the house and live elsewhere. The old toys are in a way the strangest of all. I found what may have been some novelty one, a blue bird whose wings flap and carries a little rider on its back who appears after you crank the wings long enough. Can one imagine that it was once an idea on a drawing board and then there was a decision to make perhaps a gazillion of them! Then they were marketed and distributed all over the world! It now sits in a pile of things to throw into a landfill. I feel so bad about it too. One moment something brought pleasure or entertainment, fullfilment or necessity and then, it is looked at with hesitation...bin or sentiment leading to the bin in the end. Greedy Greg ate all the green grapes . A refrain that just came to mind. All of that also gave me a chance to see distance between me and the past as I looked at it with some fondness as well, and of course. Perhaps going forward there is a chance to think about practical things. Think more and more about what else I can do for my environment. In some of the journals I saw the many, many times I wrote down inspirational lists, things on business plans, tons of work documents that I am finally throwing out (an aaahhh feeling there) and with everything I wanted to say in a loud voice, just live. The lists are fine, but it is the actions that prove them to be true. Just live.