The things that other people go through can make me feel ashamed to complain about anything ever. From my neignbour and her issues with her ex-husband telling her children that he does not want her to visit him as he has been ill for two years...to her daughter getting married and not inviting her. Then a friend telling me about a woman who has been paralized for the last twenty years and she is now sixty-two. However, that story isn't of compaint as she is married and has the resources to take care of her health. However, her situation is no doubt a very challenging one. I can go on and on with stories about people, but equally, there are many stories about people that are just amazing too. From my friends living in Portugal, to a couple I know who travel and spend the kind of time with each other that shows how much they love each other. They are always looking both happy and healthy and constantly doing great things. Or the girl I know whoes career has been smoking hot from the moment I met her. I have never met anyone who just goes from one success to the next. She has an ailment, but even with that, it has been arrested and she is just living a grand life. I know how I sound as I write this...there is much going on with my feelings right now. I am up and down in my mood. It is another day of missing my dad so terribly that I don't really know what to do with myself. I keep thinking that I should see him at any moment. I just have to deal with it. Also, with my work, I realise that although I am working all out, I have moments where I feel as though I am not making any headway. Then I begin to get very concerned that the work isn't worth doing, isn't going anywhere. I think that it is just the way I process things? Last year I rememeber this happening too. It always seems to be too much, too much emotion to deal with, but I have to.