what do you know

This morning I was making some crackers for the third time and adding something else to the recipe. I cannot wait to taste it as they came out great.While I was making them, I considered that my mood right at that moment was something that I love to feel, and I revel in those moments. But what about having longer stretches of time feeling that way? It was at that moment that a tiny detail lit large in my thoughts. If I am to keep to the feeling of confidence, that comes from focusing on your greater goals. It comes from planning and understanding that celebrating every step is key. It comes from putting love behind every moment in the process. It is also about managing expectations and just considering it an adventure. I shall read this again because I really appreciate being in this frame of mind.

song,song

Sometimes I am really amazed at the way my thoughts produce a certain train. I may be researching something on finance.Then listening to a podcast on the paranormal. I've been monitoring myself a little,as I am definately filling my mind with things to do with death, dying and the paranormal. Part of the reason is very obvious, from the death of my dad to the very latest one being just yesterday when I heard of the passing of a high school friend the day after her birthday which was the day before. Then three weeks ago it was the passing of a colleague. So I go back and forth and then I also find such interesting information way beyond my interest and last night for example I was introduced to the fantastic poetry of an American by the name of Hart Crane. I was deeply moved by the first stanza alone, far less for when I read to the end. Amidst all of this I am also reading all I can about annuities and stock, better financial plans and choices. So mine is a heavy cocktail of thoughts all swirling around in my mind. So, I am jumping from thing to thing and something else pops into my mind to join the party. It is a simple guest and that guest is ryhthm. I am suddenly focusing on that, or moreso, feeling what the word means. Now here is where the cocktail may become a flambe or something else entirely. Sitting with stillness and observing this rythm had something to say to me. It was as though I could access or become one with the rythm, and the rythm was giving me a perspective of seeing beyond me and beyond everything that I find myself thinking about and being consumed by. Particularly the things that I want solutions for right away. The answer that comes to me in the best way that I can put it is feeling instead of thinking and that produces a train of awareness of levels as one would hear in a melody. Thus I asked intuitively whether my melody is harmonious or shrill? I was sort of conscious that THAT is actually LIFE. Your either producing harmony or chaos within harmony. If you can see harmony within your chaos you can pull back from fear, from doubt and from anxiety. You are present and when you are present, still and listening...only then can you ACT to receive what is best for you.

I have been wanting to write, kept the post open and just sat and had a long running commentary that never saw the light of day.Now finally I am in the zone. A dear friend visited us yesterday and we had an excellent time together.She has taken the decision to move to another country. Listening to her enthusiasm and hearing how much the move has changed her outlook was so wonderful to hear. In the past she has been very kind to people who have taken advantage of it. What I learned from her wonderful resitation is that there is never too late a time to change your mind or way of doing things. So I did thank her, but her words have stayed with me in the best way. Of late I am adjusting my expectations and considering some new opportunities. So I am very excited and I am finding that enthusiasm is contagious. I am very focused on learning new things about topics that shall assist me in getting these new goals on the way.