song,song

Sometimes I am really amazed at the way my thoughts produce a certain train. I may be researching something on finance.Then listening to a podcast on the paranormal. I've been monitoring myself a little,as I am definately filling my mind with things to do with death, dying and the paranormal. Part of the reason is very obvious, from the death of my dad to the very latest one being just yesterday when I heard of the passing of a high school friend the day after her birthday which was the day before. Then three weeks ago it was the passing of a colleague. So I go back and forth and then I also find such interesting information way beyond my interest and last night for example I was introduced to the fantastic poetry of an American by the name of Hart Crane. I was deeply moved by the first stanza alone, far less for when I read to the end. Amidst all of this I am also reading all I can about annuities and stock, better financial plans and choices. So mine is a heavy cocktail of thoughts all swirling around in my mind. So, I am jumping from thing to thing and something else pops into my mind to join the party. It is a simple guest and that guest is ryhthm. I am suddenly focusing on that, or moreso, feeling what the word means. Now here is where the cocktail may become a flambe or something else entirely. Sitting with stillness and observing this rythm had something to say to me. It was as though I could access or become one with the rythm, and the rythm was giving me a perspective of seeing beyond me and beyond everything that I find myself thinking about and being consumed by. Particularly the things that I want solutions for right away. The answer that comes to me in the best way that I can put it is feeling instead of thinking and that produces a train of awareness of levels as one would hear in a melody. Thus I asked intuitively whether my melody is harmonious or shrill? I was sort of conscious that THAT is actually LIFE. Your either producing harmony or chaos within harmony. If you can see harmony within your chaos you can pull back from fear, from doubt and from anxiety. You are present and when you are present, still and listening...only then can you ACT to receive what is best for you.