why not

I spend a great deal of time considering all sorts of issues that can go wrong. I deduce outcomes based on past experiences. So recently I was very much in my head doing that when I decided that why not do this with my best thoughts. Why not enjoy living in a completely made up scenario that is my hope and wish? This made me laugh and definetly made me see that if I could spend so much time thinking one way, I can do the same thinking the other way.

Virtual world

I have commiserated for several years now how to move forward with a business plan that to me was all over the place. I had so many stops and starts, doubts, fears and absolute dis-illusion that I am impressed with myself that I am still at it. Today we are on orange alert weather watch, so the day is one where spending real time with self is the only thing to do and the most worthy thing at that. I am always on the look out for clues toward my goal. Todayone came in the calmest way possible. I was sitting in the lotus position thinking about an assignment I am setting out to do in about twelve to fifteen days. In considering how I am going to put it together, I began to think about the ogange alert and having to do things virtually. I considered also, what do I have at my disposal? What can I do now? I can see. I visiualize strongly and I can be very steady. I have also written many times that when I feel confident I would like it to stay with me for a very long time. I think that I finally know how to handle that. It means when I have anxious moments that I notice that I am feeling that way and that I am NOT my anxiety. These feelings are so satisfying.

gratitude tonic

Sometimes the nature of circumstances are such that having an open mind and patience can produce certain conclusions you were looking for. I had to go looking for something from 2017 for someone who had an enquiry. In so doing I found a lot of old papers, diaries and books. As I did so, I was going down memory lane, particularly when I found a photograph of myself I hadn't seen in an age. I thought, what would my younger self think if I came across myself now? I surprised myself with my answer. I found myself answering that I have not chosen the beaten path that's for sure.That opened up a floodgate of unexpectidly happy feelings within me. I saw that the journey is the point. I saw all of the ideas I have had and some of the projects I have worked on, and I just saw myself getting more done and enjoying even more of the process of making and publishing and that was so heady to me. I gave thanks over and over again to see that nothing has been in vein.