tasting the vine

Already I am learning this year that just bbecause all of the actions of someone may lead to the accurate conclusion, it does not mean that my response need be definative.An example of this is with a colleague whom I can see is challenged by her new promoted state, so she has been playing the game really hard. I can get upset with her, and I did after she did something that was manipulative. I felt it and knew it and it factored into things that I put together from her past actions that now became amplified. However, to my surprise, I chose to acknowledge it, yet let it go because what I got from this was that I am to keep my focus on what I want to do for me. By taking the emphasis off of her, and focusing my intentions back to myself. I had a chance to forgive, forget and be mindful while being grateful for what in that moment seemed like a stumbling block. ..........................................................................the next important thing has been the deciding faster...the awareness of why I have procrastinated with things that matter most to me in the past, and how I am now in a space where I have confronted the reasons and become able to adjust instantly. I have for example known that I should follow up on a call, or get out of a comfort zone to get to something I want...and I hesitate and I take too long...that fear that I can get rejected had been huge. To face yet another no in my mind has made it easy to just be avoidant. It is also strange of me because for other things I do not face such a level of ambivilence at all. In fact I just don't see a problem. I am confident and that's all it takes. I love when I feel that way. When I do, even a rejection does not stall me. I have found that last year and these last twenty-five days, that sense of clarity is so sweet.