some lovely thoughts

I was blessed this morning with my projects all coming to the fore and working out. I took the opportunity to feel myself holding the objects and my wanting to travel along like I was floating above myself, to see more. I think that this has to do with gifting my daughter with the newest Minecraft for her DS. I have been enjoying watching her play and I am recently flirting with what media can do today.

the slate

There is always the feeling that if only you could have a moment to think things out, to see the world without the hustle, bustle, societal pressures and financial needs...you might be able to manage and make sense of it all. But somehow in your life, you always have a heavy feeling of not being able to stop. Yet, if you give yourself the stop. You just STOP. you STOP and you take that moment, the clarity comes upon you. You can stop and do absolutely nothing. Onserve your space or lack of space that you take up in the world. Your contribution to the pollution on all fronts...your sense of urgency no longer being about speed ...you want meaning.

having a think

I am having a birthday milestone in a few days.I haven't felt so excited about one in decades...lol. I cannot explain why, other than to state that gratitude comes to mind. I look back and miss so many people I thought would still be here. I consider paths I have walked and not walked.I think that at my age now, many aspects of what I focused on has changed. It has been subtle. The shifts are sometimes so small, you dont recognise it. Motion capture imagery comes to mind. I also nestle into the notion of the way in which one thinks of ones life as it passes before your eyes. I feel the experiences, the combination of emotions that went through me in those moments and before you know it, you are recalling recent moments and bypassing them into future moments desired and the thing that stays with me is that in ones sense of planning, there is a feeling of agelessness. If you reach for what emotions come from this, I consider the desire to be confident, hopeful and happy. I thonk that that is a wonderful barometre for stepping forward and going into the unknown.