mid year

There are things that I go back and forth on and it is pretty normal. But, frustrating.I must have written this so many times before and again, now is no different. There are so many small things that I wsometimes want to capture...miniscule moments that mean something only to me and I don't or it is not considered when I write here and offline. These little snippets always come back to have some meaning. I want to try to be more mindful of that in the future. Next....its six months into 2026. When I was a child and a teen, moreso child, I remember calculating some of the years to this...I think I remember saying 2025 in my child mind, wondering what it may be like then. I am not at this age doing that so much anymore. I don't say, hmmm, 2030, 2060. This may be because so much life is behind me. But, come on. Just as the past that is now the present felt so unkown and promising, the future needs to also feel that way. It is so important to have confidence in your life, to have wonder and joy too. It is necessary to be hopeful...to have and build a legacy. It is good consider those you know and love and support and who support you. It is wonderous to imagine the people and experiences yet to be had. I can spend my time in fear, dread and worry. Or I can remember that I am still very much that eight year old child at heart.