Expected results

It could not have been better planned. My cousin wrote me a very disgruntled email about his book. He assumed that I had no intention of doing it. So his letter was filled with disappointment. Little did he know that not only was it finished, he would get it the very next day!
I loved springing this surprise on him! It went way better than I could have planned it.
When he called me he was over the moon, extatic! He told me it made him cry. He was so moved by every single page. He kept looking at it, wondering whether I might have left out anything he would like to add, and he could find nothing.
Then to add to the wonderful mood of the whole thing, my little one kept looking at the book herself, that she kept pressing the keypad of this computer to see the book back and front. She then told me that,and I quote, "found the book very beautiful."
Now that's a great endorcement if I ever heard one.
One one more note, she finally gor the hang of going to the potty. So that was the big surprise for my mother's birthday!
Smiles abound.

There are lessons everywhere

TV reality SOS

I cannot say that reality television is all crap, because I like looking at four of them, America's Next Top Model, Iron Chef, Next Food Network Star and Project Runway Canada. SO I have to say that I am a reality television junky.
Tonight on the first show mentioned, I saw a very beautiful girl crumble because she just gave in to her fears.
Actually this is why I watch these shows, I actually look at what can be learnt from them.
This girl had a tiny inkling of failure and as the show progressed, she literally gave in to the comfortable feeling of sinking. To watch her second guess herself and not find the energy to push through, was tough. It makes me see myself, how I may come across (to myself, first of all).
Oddly, despite the meltdown this afternoon, I have been looking at the whole idea of confidence and stoking the fires of positivity. What has been helping me when I hit a wall has been the thought that, ok, so I feel like this at the moment, but you know what, IT ISN'T TOMORROW IS IT!

I look at couples nuzzling and carrying kids, or buying something lovely, looking like a million dollars, walking with their good looking, well dressed, happy man and I tell myself, look at that, how lovely. I shall feel that again. I know it.

The other day i saw a lady in her car. Not a hair or makeup out of place. She got out and opened the door to her house in a cavalier fashion, and those words came to me.

There is no doubt that what I feel is a constant challenge to run from falling apart.
But you know what....ok, so I feel like this at the moment...