Saturday, June 6, 2009

Maybe he's just not that into you

I just saw the movie and it was great. I needed to just wind down and look at something this weekend, after working all week on my project. I can see the progress, but I have quite a ways to go.
I am loving the work though. The movie was a big help to me. Of late I have felt quite sentimental, and I have been observing it with suspicion, trying to gauge why I should feel this way now. The movie helped jog me to the position that my ego, although I think that it is usually more sedated, when alert, it can cause havoc.
I have looked at all of the people whom I have found interesting, and now see that
they were just not into me. I can actually laugh about it, as the truth is that in the moment the feeling was great, whether what was shared was a laugh or more vulnerable feelings. The moment was special and that was all it was, a special, shared moment. To take it to another level, to believe that there was some sort of possibility behind anything was just pathetic. You believe what you want to believe.
So now, I must just 'get over' whatever I think anything is,I must start afresh, because no one has made me feel that they are into me at all. The signs are very much there that I have no one in my life who is interested in me romantically.
My dance card is empty.

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