revelation time

In the last few days I have been doing quite a bit, and I am very happy about the outcome. After my ex-husband had that blow out argument with me in his car, I took a good long look at the situation, and I took hold of myself. One of the first things that I did was look at the whole 'poor me' issue, that I have discussed here before. But I went further, I also decided to be frank with myself about what my fears and concerns are. Taking a look at them, looking at them, and seeing where they were basic concerns that are normal, and that I can find a place of support even within places of doubt, was very helpful.
I have felt that the last three years have not gone as I had hoped. But I accept that I did not actually say things to myself,for example-: After a year I expect that I should be at 'x'. I did not actually think of myself from that place. I kept thinking that I had to look at what was happening "to" me. I thus placed myself outside the decision. Things were happening to me. I did not feel that I had choices and options, even when I made them.
So, what's so different now? It may seem really basic and it may be wondered how come I did not get this all this time? But the fact is that I get this now. My point is to really look at goals and to have a plan of action and a career path.
I have gone from one thing to another, and I have felt that things should go a certain way. I am over all of that now.
In a year from now, I am working at a job I love, my daughter and my ex-husband are in a good place both literally, emotionally and in every way. i feel better about my life, my Art career is back on track and I feel very good about the ability to make decisions that make me happy.
I will get there by putting one foot in front of the other, observe what is possible, whereever I am, and look for opportunities. I shall work on my attitude and expectations, and I shall succeed because it is all about the mind.