Elephant in the room

Finally I was able to put a dent on the question that I have been wanting to ask Mr. World traveller. I need to come up with a nickname for him and stick to it. Anyway, we has our usual wonderful, friendly and a bit flirty talk on Skype. Then he did me something that threw me off. I probably do the same thing to, I know that I certainly have done it in the past, so I am conscious of it. He went from flirty to friendly. Suddenly he says something so cute and PC that I feel as though he has left me out in the cold with the sensual statements and just wants to pull back to being friends. Now I have no right being anxious about that because, as I stated before, I am the queen of ambivalence when it comes to such things. But now that I am having it done to me,my first thought and second thought is to pull way, way back and observe what is going on. Anyway, I kick down my inhibitions and I ask the important question and he gets right into answering me. What bothers me with this man is how long we have been dancing around our feelings. It has been years! Every time I think that there may be something, something comes up. This time around, I feel the way I did the last time. I feel that I should just give up on the whole thing. From the conversation that we had,I feel badly for him. He is still at the beginning of where I was five years ago. I think that there may be some hope yet for his situation, although he may not think so. As long as they are working out staying in the same place, raising their children, I think that they have a shot, and I am much, much happier knowing that he can be made happier and that things can work out for him, than what I would like to experience with him. This is simply age and reason talking. I have nothing to gain by pushing this situation in any way, so I think that I should just relegate myself to good friend again. After all, that is what I am, and really, with all that he has to do, that is actually what I do have, and it is a lot. So, hear I go again, shutting down something that he riled up...again. But I know that it is for the best.