What do you expect?

Life is nothing if not interesting. Last year at this time, I was determined to do all that I could to have a more reasonably paced year. I did not actually succeed, but I am here, aware of what I set out to do and I have come quite a way in the process. I bought an item for myself this year, the item that I am writing in now, that I have been very satisfied with. It has become a very large part of my personal happiness because I can read my new (bad habit) fan fiction at any time that I want to do so, and I do this every day. In buying it and in the final payment made on the pencils that I wanted to get, I can say that if I had not done these things, I would have considerably more money in the bank. This brings me much confidence, because it tells me that I can save even when I think that I may not be able to. I learned this year that there is only so much that I can do, and that I am grateful that I am able to do them. I have worked on being less judgmental about life, removing certain expectations about things. I have been watchful over my ego, willing to look at other points of view and making sure not to take myself or life so seriously that it affects the way I feel and see. I found two great meditation sites this year, and I look at them every few days, and they sustain me considerably. This year I came to greater realization of what I want for myself, what I can and cannot do, and whether certain things are worth doing. My romantic life, though very spotty to non-existent, was faced with some interesting moments that brought me to a greater sense of my needs. I did quite alright this year and next year, god willing, I have much to do, including a show of my own. I am optimistic and grateful, and amidst all of this, pleased that I feel so confident about where I am setting my sites.