Lucky 13

Already I have started the year with some decisions made in strength and satisfaction. I have finally, finally jettisoned some dead weight. Thank god, at long last! The first one happened awhile ago,but I was able to establish where I stand after the funeral, and cement it last night. I could not believe that he had become so arrogant. He was completely out of control, not caring how he was coming across, and really flaunting whatever his agenda is. But guess what,I meant what I said, and that's that. I am not going back. Then frequent flyer, sheesh! He too has been blowing up all manner of technology when convenient to him, to send me inane notes. Then, providence was so kind to me, because yet again, without having to ask, I can see that FF is most comfortable in domestic life. So I do not know why he ever even bothered to tell me the crap he did about having patience and that he will make the time to really spend quality tome with me....as if I am some mistress or something? Thank god I never fell for even remotely considering any kind of intimacy there. I do not understand how he went from a really lovely friend to this asshole who acts as though he has some control and is separated when he clearly is not? Who is he trying to fool? I just do not get this? I never pursued that? He started all the flirting and promises. I could scream! So during his heart to heart convo with me, I looked him in the eyes and changed my mind right on the spot. I am not giving him another opportunity to blow smoke up my ass. He is back in the garage where he should have been parked years ago along with the other one. Now, there is a third satellite on the horizon. I have not discussed him because he was just as I stated, on the periphery. But something changed the dynamic, because unlike the two just mentioned, he is supposed to be single. So forgive my feminine stupidity, I actually did the worst Gorky deduction and thought, hey, he's single...so give him a chance, see whether it can possibly lead to something. Note to self....never say, let me see, give it a chance, he is a good guy...anything as shitty as that, ever again! I am not 12! Any pronouncement must be made on facts and good old fashioned summing up based on maturity. This new one, real FF, I forget now what I nicknamed him, and perhaps that is where part of the problem lies, I should not have to nickname anyone....anyway.... He seems to enjoy not answer a straightforward questions. He seems to think being mysterious is cool. Well two can play that crap game. Why waste time like that. When he finally says what he really means the question isn't even worth the time it took to get the answer! anyway...I will have to finish this later. I am exhausted.