Confound it!!

So, my week feels like I burnt my candle every which way and though exhausted, I am writing now. I am pleased despite how I feel, to have accomplished so much this week. However a few things are still on the front burner for me. How I shall work them out, shall take a bit of time. Meanwhile...I prefer to focus on my work than the tiny nagging voice that tells me that I am already a bit fed up with....sheesh, what was the nickname that I gave him again? I think it was the towers. He seems to genuinely think that appearing illusive and laid back is going to make me come forward and he cannot be more wrong. I am too busy, too focused and too jaded to consider that remotely appealing. I think that I have given it enough of my time. I don't know what else to say. His behavior just rubs me the wrong way. It just disappoints me. I do not feel the usual things that to me come naturally when a man is interested in me. He did brilliantly when we were in different countries, but now...he leaves much to be desired. I don't feel like he is trying to be more than my friend, although he has gone to the other extreme when he can corner me, he jumps all over me and I have to tell him to stop like if he's a child. This is so maddening. We may just simply not be meant for more than it has been these last two years. So I should just stop wondering about it.