Perhaps, too much time... Swirling around in my head of late, is the action of "the Towers" that I spoke about yesterday. I know that my concerns can be dealt with with a conversation, and we both deserve to have it as soon as possible. Yet, I am still stubbornly clinging to wanting to be right. Hmmmm, that is saying alot here. So as usual I want to look at something that gets me deeply embarrassed. One reason he challenges my expectations comes from the fact that the typical things that one hears and expects when a man is interested, do not seem to come tripping off of his tongue naturally, if at all. He does not dole out affection....he seems certainly sex focused, but foreplay...seems to be something unusual in his repertoire? Now I do not know enough of him really, but this is how it seems so far to me. should I gettison any chance at something here, just because I have certain expectations? When there is much that I do like about him? My instinct throws a hussy fit instantly and says to me, if you like him so much, then just be friends....you have a headache...lol. .......................................................... Should I let myself off the hook so easily? This is about my expecting a certain kind of attention. I expect to be ...well, courted as it were. Let me see the very best of you. Is this the best of him that I am seeing? Perhaps? But then, he is the first person with whom I have gone out, and I do not think about it again, until we speak. I don't wonder about his day? Or think about what I would like to do with him at some point in the future on another date. There, I wrote it. I also do not really think that he is feeling anything special for me. If he was, wouldn't he be making an effort to somehow want to engage my time? I don't know? It is confusing? He has asked me to meet, and we have met, and he has made overtures to sleep with me, but somehow, it all falls flat. I am probably sounding like some spoiled bitch right now, complaining because someone likes me, and I just want to be a whiner! I really don't. I want to understand what I am feeling? And I want to start on strong footing. Particularly after attracting two married men, to whom I have given much of my time in the past. I do not think that in either case, I have felt as I have because they are otherwise spoken for. In both cases, my history with them began with a deep, strong mutual attraction that has not abated, much to our mutual intrigue. So, no, it is simply my past expectations. There has always usually been a dance of strong mutual emotions that seem to singe the air. My ex-husband being the biggest zinger of all. What feelings! Waw! It was like a drug. Thank goodness that we had our work that took up the other part of our oxygen. Lol. It is nice to know that I remember that fondly. An older friend is trying to tell me that this is a much more mature situation, and that I am dealing with a different sort of relationship, where it is more steady and real. But to me, it seems like he's just set in his ways, expects things his way, a little selfish and never has had to take a look at himself really. So, yes, a convo is in order here, and I shall give the details when it happens.