Nearly fell off the world

If I were not vigilant I would nearly have found myself going down the deep end of becoming an asshole. Simply put, I was so much in my own head, complaining about something I had very little control over...that I began to hear myself become someone I would not want to talk to. A complainer, a shiner, a bitter sort. I have good reason.but that is not good enough. I do not want to go down the road of the aggeaved. I know what it's like. I hear it in others all around me. I am so much more mindful, more conscious of late of what is better in the world. I am so much happier to know that there is so very much more to want to build and enjoy thn break and destroy. So, I took a look and I turned around,ms tarting with curbing the need to spew verbal diarrhea and then, to give a moment to what runs through my mind. To find the triggers that lead me to negative, predictable behavior. I have had enough of it. More than my share. I am in control of me. I am in a space in my mind now where I want to watch and enjoy how I am going to make my life over in the likeness that I know best.