A few creative people have expressed interest in helping me with my work. I have come up with a name to give the project. But now, I realize that I was thinking in too limited a way. The very idea that that is what I was doing has me a bit frightened out of my mind. I don't know how I am going to make it happen? But then, a dear friend of mine gave me a great pep talk. She said that I have been working at this for so very long, I have perfected it, and I do not need any more damn preparation...she said this, because I kept talking about further research. I did not even see that that is always a fallback position for me. The comfort of going over and over the way I want something to look and to be and all the rest of it. She drew up my thinking for me so perfectly that for a moment I wanted to be in her place saying what I wanted to have come from me with such assurance. But then I remembered that so many times, I have seen so easily for her to the point of exasperation. So, I listened harder. My interests are so broad. I'd like to do a project with organic food and drinks for the grocery stores....I'd like to do environmental packaging....I'd like to do contemporary/antique furniture....a men's collection....limited edition bags....Art books...a newspaper...how do I get all of that done with the support of a variety of Artisans and make money? That is what I am not quite seeing? I think that I need to step back and sleep on it, because I know that my answer is in there. It is very possible to do what I just wrote. I was thinking the other day that it would be cool to be considered someone's muse. But "I am my own muse'" I always have been, and that would be a great audacious tagline for the brand that I have already come up with for all of this wonderful stuff that is scaring the bejezuz out of me in a good way. I thin that I might have just gotten part of the idea actually. I have wanted to draw, create and build an Architectural sculpture/Performance/Space where one of a kind things can be sold. That would be a way to "Do iT." I could set up in spaces that are related to the works as well...where I work, my friend's frame shop...a pop-up shop at that. The success of one can lead to other Architectural structures...and everything would be for sale. Including the structures themselves. The whole thing could be like an Olafur Erickson experiment..only it would be about my own creative processes. God, the whole thing is arrogant, audacious and exciting all at the same time. I like the way it is igniting me as I write this. I shall give it some serious, serious thought and see what kind of business plan I can write around it, because it is about making money from this venture. I have done without much for so damn long, it is now time to stop hiding myself under all of my perceived limitations.