As things heat up with my personal work, I have one or two new projects on the horizon to begin to prepare for. In so doing, I realize that I now need a bigger space to be in. I am going to also spend some time again on a very old project that I have started and stopped at least seven or eight times over the years. It is such a strange thing, I have longed to see it completed, but that very fact that I don't is caused by wanting it to look very specific. At the talk that I did two nights ago with some other colleagues, I was asked twice to start writing more publicly. That was nice to hear, but I also realize that I gave the host an ok on what she read about me, and I left out so much of what I do, it was silly. But at the time, I felt that because of the forum,I didn't need to toot my own horn. I feel that finally I am coming into my own. I am seeing my direction. What's funny is that, it may not look like much on the outside. But because I know what I want to do, I am no longer thinking the way I used to. I have worked very hard to shift my way of thinking, and I have seen it pay off. For so long, I had a certain mindset. I knew that I had my beliefs that mattered to me, and then, I had the beliefs of my family, my supposed superiors and then the world at large that comes at you as popular culture. I have fortunately always felt a twinge of discomfort to things that fit too well. I am also distrustful of information that people parrot as though it were fact. When I encounter such things, my breathing slows down and I instantly find myself filling the information away to research just how true the conversation is. Without that, I think that the world would be completely unbearable for me. That, and of course choosing a creative career. I have also begun to just feel grateful for where I am and what I am doing. I have always said that I regret that I did not enjoy the moment more when I see old pictures of myself. Now, after facing the losses I have, I know that it is time to find my way again. Or at least to better. I spent a great deal of time saying that I cannot do certain things because I needed the money to do them. That was not untrue, but there were also so many things that I could do that do not take up a lot of money or any money at all. I need to focus more on doing and less on limitations, and I have been doing that. It's a good day, and I have good thoughts about everything now.