There comes a time when you have to close a door. I may not feel ready,but today, when I ran over certain thoughts that still march through my mind, the combination of experiences just called for a decision on my part. Sometimes, when I have decided to end something that has felt so familiar, I know it is for the best. But although it is the right move, it feels sad and upsetting, even when you know it. It isn't any longer about some sort of lightening bolt, reward sort of thing. You make a choice with all of the same feelings before the decision, in place. I have to look ahead. I have to look at my strengths, and they come at unexpected moments, where I hear myself saying things that help me go on. When I have to make what feels like a hard choice, I remind myself that I have faced things and persevered. I know that I have no idea what to expect, but sometimes it matters to just be open. To not have any fear in the unknown. Also, to trust that I can focus on better.