A few days ago I thought that I had read the perfect introduction, summing up so many conflicting feelings I have. I don't know why, but I did not screen capture it, photograph it or write it down. So I shall just have to go on memory. The statement was about expectations. It was one of those evenings when I would be fine one moment and the next I would find my thoughts wondering and eventually leading me down paths so familiar that I would forget that they led me to brooding. I know that if I can't keep to knowing that I am moving forward and I have plans and I am creating my future from the best energy that I can muster, and then...bam. these little niggling moods flutter around me like mosquitoes! The statement felt like a meal and I injested it whole. It was exactly what I needed to push myself out of my morass. I have been looking for it ever since. But, I had to accept defeat and proceed to write this evening anyway.