some interesting anecdotes

When things do not go well at work it is always cause for questioning competence. Even when it isn't you that it is happening to. In my case this week, the words of the Secretary has kept in my thoughts. Over the decade I have found that I have had to deal with contract mistakes and payment mistakes and a variety of issues that have kept me running around to have things corrected. I have also made a few myself. None of it has ever been simple. The Secretary this year mentioned me in a way that suggested that there is some relationship between me and the 'issues' I have faced. In other words, somehow my energy causes confusion. I have said this about others in observation. Now I was being confronted with it and I wanted to take a good look at that as a reality or as an energy that I can change. I of course do not like the fact that I can be perceived that way and on the other hand, I find the whole thing petty and not really worthy of too much concern. But, clearly because I am writing this here, I am concerned about how I am perceived. Nobody cares when you are doing your job well. If they can find a chink in your armour...well then...pounce they do pounce.Or that is my internal monologue considering that that is the case. The reality is more along the lines of everyone doing what they can to not appear incompetant and looking for scapegoats. It is not personal. I am glad that I decided to write this down here and look at it. Sometimes you really feel that you are being targetted.