Going back has helped

I may have mentioned awhile back that I was looking through a few old diaries of mine. Well, a few weeks on I can state that going back has rejuvinated going forward. I went back in time and eavesdropped on my much younger self.I remembered what those times meant to me... I recalled the way the horizon was before me, completely uncharted. In so doing, I know that the horizon is still very much there. I recalled my curiosity about my plans, goals and dreams.Again, they are still very much part of who I am. I am, I have, I became and continue to be becoming. What a relief that is to me. My past is not something I lament. Time has indeed smoothed over so many things that appeared only one way or that I have forgotten. Putting one foot in front of the other understanding what 'present' means in all its ways...today I feel a gentleness within me and I am grateful.