Today I followed through on a thought that occurred to me out of the blue. What would happen if I just followed the guide in my head? What I mean by this specifically is, suppose I erased my hard wireing and decided to say to myself, I shall defy whatever I think limits me?
What would this look like?
For starters, I would stop thinking that I cannot do something because I do not have the money or the opportunity, or the time or the drive.
This got me excited.
I continued to think about it. Allow your thoughts to run along without looking at the usual excuses that keep you back. (However this is not about stating things from a place of dreaming, this is actually allowing paths to open based on this thinking) for example, my first thought was on the idea I recently got for a project but had to stall. I said to myself, start doing those drawings on that new project that you have in mind, and when the money arrives, buy the materials and get the project done.
Act all of the time towards aquiring your goals. A way will be found and/or made.
The attitude is everything. Act from a place of knowing that everything you want to create can and will happen according to the nature of things.
Thinking this way certainly feels better than the alternative.
Sometimes you yourself are the problem because you are only looking at something from one perspective and that perspective is limiting. I think that from now on, when I focus on something, my objective is to then ask, now, show me how to get to the next step, and I am taking it NOW.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
New beginnings
I was doing some online research this afternoon regarding my creative idea to start an Art and Design Planning Company. My thoughts on the matter is to align myself with NGO's whom I believe have quite a great deal that they can do to impact the public, yet do not. This idea came home to me acutely when over the course of a month, I heard at least three NGO's on the radio talk about their very important work and the difficulties they experienced. My mind shouted, as I heard their issues. It was so obvious to me that they would be best served by good visual media carrying their messages. Then I had an aha moment.
I see my service as one where NGO's and other companies approach me for degrees of guerilla and other types of marketing of their ideas and concepts. This also includes my other design planning ideas as well, like doing the mall and the airports.
The whole thing sounds very reasonable on paper. My goal now is to see how to bring the idea into reality.
I see my service as one where NGO's and other companies approach me for degrees of guerilla and other types of marketing of their ideas and concepts. This also includes my other design planning ideas as well, like doing the mall and the airports.
The whole thing sounds very reasonable on paper. My goal now is to see how to bring the idea into reality.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Sunday, December 26, 2010
A great time of year
Last night my cousin called and we had quite a long talk. He asked me again the question of what I want to do? This year I felt very gung-ho about starting something new, and then the wind in my sails was clipped when my business partner died.
However, at this time of year this question is very apropo. I am back on the page where I am looking at what I wanted to do again.
I see that the point is to start. I have one project in mind already, and another one in the works too. Neither are necessarily about money, but they will be attention getting things in some way. I think that my objective is to just create the work and the rest shall fall into place.
However, at this time of year this question is very apropo. I am back on the page where I am looking at what I wanted to do again.
I see that the point is to start. I have one project in mind already, and another one in the works too. Neither are necessarily about money, but they will be attention getting things in some way. I think that my objective is to just create the work and the rest shall fall into place.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
In Reading Over
I thought that I should look at some of the things that occupied my thoughts this year, and realised that I have not written about the latest with my ex huband.
The councellor we had gone to had annoyed me, because she ' to my mind' seemed to be asking me to compromise to move forward. However, at the end of the day, I came to the conclusion that if I were to really progress, I would have to let many things that urk me, go. I just had to forgive and move on.
During this time, he decided that he would go to Canada. He has been there since the end of September and he has decided that he is not willing to look for some low paying, blue collar job. He decided this last month, and ever since, he has not even tried to look for anything at all. He has also not applied for our daughters' PR card or seen to renewing his own.
His about face about Canada is much more staggering in nature than I could have expected. When I was married to him, I thought that his going would help him to see how important what he was doing here in his own country is for him. Yet, I did not expect that he would fold so quickly and so easily. I have to do my best to not compare his attitude to my going and his attitude to his going.
He did write me an email apology for having believed that when I had gone that I was not trying hard enough. I appreciate that, because I did try hard and clearly, I tried harder than he did.
To look back and compare, and to know that so much of our lives has been spent in the futile attempt to argue who is right or who is smart.
What was it all for?
I thought that I should look at some of the things that occupied my thoughts this year, and realised that I have not written about the latest with my ex huband.
The councellor we had gone to had annoyed me, because she ' to my mind' seemed to be asking me to compromise to move forward. However, at the end of the day, I came to the conclusion that if I were to really progress, I would have to let many things that urk me, go. I just had to forgive and move on.
During this time, he decided that he would go to Canada. He has been there since the end of September and he has decided that he is not willing to look for some low paying, blue collar job. He decided this last month, and ever since, he has not even tried to look for anything at all. He has also not applied for our daughters' PR card or seen to renewing his own.
His about face about Canada is much more staggering in nature than I could have expected. When I was married to him, I thought that his going would help him to see how important what he was doing here in his own country is for him. Yet, I did not expect that he would fold so quickly and so easily. I have to do my best to not compare his attitude to my going and his attitude to his going.
He did write me an email apology for having believed that when I had gone that I was not trying hard enough. I appreciate that, because I did try hard and clearly, I tried harder than he did.
To look back and compare, and to know that so much of our lives has been spent in the futile attempt to argue who is right or who is smart.
What was it all for?
more thinking...
What an interesting thing it is to experience a tumult of feelings back to back that encourage you to think several things on one topic over a forty-eight hour period.
After our talk, I felt comfortable and even happy that we had reached what I thought was a consensus.
Then, I began to feel a sense of loss and even a bit of pique when I mulled over some of what was said.
Even later, I chose to conclude that I had something to learn from the whole thing. Then after I felt that I had closed that page, it started up all over again.
What I got from all of this, is to take a look at what I want and how I affect myself. This time, I come prepared with the knowing that I am standing strong. It does not mean that my ego is completely behaving...because I cannot deny that a small part of me is saying that I know that this is how it will always go down.
What I am getting this time is that I am in a control of the situation that has nothing to do with ego but with looking above what should happen to what can be better in the end, even if I might slip again...and slip because I am not going to lie, I feel him.
What an interesting thing it is to experience a tumult of feelings back to back that encourage you to think several things on one topic over a forty-eight hour period.
After our talk, I felt comfortable and even happy that we had reached what I thought was a consensus.
Then, I began to feel a sense of loss and even a bit of pique when I mulled over some of what was said.
Even later, I chose to conclude that I had something to learn from the whole thing. Then after I felt that I had closed that page, it started up all over again.
What I got from all of this, is to take a look at what I want and how I affect myself. This time, I come prepared with the knowing that I am standing strong. It does not mean that my ego is completely behaving...because I cannot deny that a small part of me is saying that I know that this is how it will always go down.
What I am getting this time is that I am in a control of the situation that has nothing to do with ego but with looking above what should happen to what can be better in the end, even if I might slip again...and slip because I am not going to lie, I feel him.
Monday, December 20, 2010
The feeling sorries really kicked my ass earlier today. I felt and thought some really low things. I was really marvelling at the degree to which I felt it necessary to torture myself.
What brought me back to myself? As my friend Stephen said, start thinking of better and also of what you have done in the past, that straightened me out.
What brought me back to myself? As my friend Stephen said, start thinking of better and also of what you have done in the past, that straightened me out.
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