2008 thoughts

As the year comes to an end, I feel as though I have been giving myself the year to aquaint myself with divorce, and now that I have, I now must go forward in earnest.
I was in my bed, and I was thinking about what I need to do in 2009 and beyond. The way I was thinking about it, had more of a sense of insistance than times past. I found myself asking for concrete answers. These answers I shall post ofline in my diary.
The year has brought such change for me. But what I have learnt most of all, is that, I did not fall apart. I stood right up and began to make something of myself.
I am so fortunate that I have always had my interest at heart, and I have also always had something to do that takes up my passion. That has indeed been helpful
It has also been a year where not getting what you want has been the cautionary tale. On the one hand, I reconnected with someone whom I feel deeply for, but they are hesitant and sending many mixed signals. Then on the other hand, a younger man, a very nice, and handsome guy has been slowly pursuing me, and I do not have those feelings for him.
These mild flirtations have been a helpful salve at a time when old feelings stir up constantly.
It has also been a time for much self reflection. I have had to think on one salary and really, not a salary at all, but savings.Oddly enough, my confronting money in this way has not made me worry more about what I have to do. I understaqnd that there is only so much that can be done, and my objective is to do my best at all times.