Perspective is an amazing thing. I have had certain views about two men I have known for more than a decade, and now I feel differently about it all. This came about because they chose to say something to me that clued in to their motives.At this time I believe that both know that they have screwed up, and today I dealt with both of them in different ways. One I ignored and the other, I kept to professional conversation. I plan to stay that way. I was really disappointed with him. He really had me believing that we could get together. I had put having any feelings for him behind me, and he encouraged me to think that we were actually building something together, just repeating that makes me feel I'll! Ugh. Now that I am annoyed, I have no patience, as both are acting as though nothing of any great consequence has occurred. But I would prefer and should talk about what this revelation means to me now. I have to admit that a weight has been taken from me. I had no idea the amount of energy I was giving to supposition. my desire right now is to focus on things that I want to do. Last night as I gave thought to my day, which was spent preparing and supporting my mom as she helped a friend celebrate their hundredth birthday....I got a clear idea for the long suffering project that I was working on. I also have a few outstanding things to complete and to focus on creating my own work. All of this has me excited, and that is way more important to me than anything else.