My feelings today was such that I am appreciative of what I had written in my last entry. Over the last few months I have had some lovely talks online with someone I have liked for more than a decade. he has made me feel that the interest is mutual, and he has been my friend in the sincerest way, so I am not perturbed that this situation is not genuine. However, I am upset because he had put to me that we needed to meet, and he said this to me last year. With what I thought was the best intentions to make good on this decision. He has since not been able to meet these words spoken to me. It prooved so concerning to me at one point because I had made a gift for him that had to be printed, and I had gone out of my way to do so some time ago. Then lately I was looking for a box to put his gift in. Anyway, this time he surprised me and said that he would be here, and then he mentioned that he would be coming on business with his brother. Ok, so he was not coming to see me. This was no big deal, he always makes the time to see me anyway. He asks me to find out some information about a place to hold his meeting and despite my exhaustion from a week of intense work, I press my neighbor into doing a favor for me.(I never ask her, and she always asks me...so I was able to get her to do it) and she likes him a great deal, so she finds out the information for me, which I get to him. Then, bam, he cannot make it. So I deduce that he would be where he is for a few days longer and I ask him some leading questions to see where he is standing. His replies suggest to me that he is either distracted or I am very mistaken about where I stand with him. He then makes this clearer to me when he starts complaining about his wife searching through his phone...again. Hello. You told me that you had separated and that you had moved out. I felt so stupid. So very stupid! Then so angry that I ever took on anything that he had said to me. I appreciate it though, because I could have found myself really set up. So it is indeed for the best.