That damned ego

The ego is so smooth.....sheesh! When I read over what I wrote,...I want an apology.... I sound like a petulant child. I had what is called in our slang...ah teef head. I have been working myself up into a lather about these topics. As though searching for the best way to get myself to pay attention to sabotaging feelings. I know that that is so because I am not achieving anything that propels me forward. I am stuck in the past by indulging such thought, If I don't get what I secretly want, then I will torture myself with verbal flagellation. What a thing, I must be vigilant.