Better ...... Today I took the time to look at my finances and the way things have been for the year. It was a good wake up call. I was able to be very matter of fact about everything, and in so doing, I even got to see some patterns I have when it comes to my decision making and attitude about money. Then, with the whole Kim Kardashian theft of her jewelry in Paris, someone sent me an image of her husband, Kanye West, saying that he is $53Million in debt so naturally he'd stage the theft of $10Million in jewelry. The world is a very skeptical place. But that aside, the silly meme was helpful because it reminded me that more people than I can imagine are possibly living in similar debt, and still having a life. Life doesn't stop for debt. It can keep you small or you can be pragmatic about challenges like that. Get up in the morning and definitely be grateful to see another day. Find things to look at that make you smile. Every day, little things will creep into your day to cause anxieties of all kinds. What I am asking myself now is how and when am I going to re-write my history? ............. I am not settling. I am seeing my plans, goals and dreams actually turning out as I expect. Just writing that alone feels very good. .....I do not know when or how my expectations became so tentative? I know that I have never felt as though my country was one where I was on a level playing field. Now thats not unusual, but I never felt completely confidant about anything. That is where I need to start thinking.Only in the last few years have I been able to not see things that way. ....too much thought.