and further more...

When I was through writing last night and firmly ensconced under my quilt, I got one more thought about what I was thinking about. I spent a great deal of time focused on the worst of what was going on in my life, so I produced more of it. It sounds pretty simplistic. But in a way, it is that simple. I didn't have a 100% horrible last eight years, there were many good moments. But for a great deal of important things, I focused emotionally on them. This was not the fault of myself or anyone else. It was just what it was. I can say now, and intend on being able to say in the future that a great deal of what I experienced was based on what I heard, and what I expected from a situation. Unfortunately, hearing scary, negative stuff is the norm, and I really do what I can to not impose that sort of attitude to people I deal with on a day to day basis. It is hard to find people who are optimistic, confident about possibilities for their future...basic things like that. But what I will say too is that I was possibly not receptive to attracting good advice. In 2017, I shall be looking at this much more. What sort of advice do I get? What am I attracting? How am I feeling about the things that I know I do want? Am I thinking that certain things are not possible for me, and so I should not even try? How am I making things better for me?