feeling some kinda way

As our local slang goes. Of course I am feeling some kinda way. But it isn't mind numbingly, heart and soul crushingly bad. Lol. However, it is a hovering sadness. How can I be mad? I state it again. When I saw the images of his little family. How could I even begin to object! They are getting a second chance. I am so happy for them. I was lucky for the time given to me. I experienced something amazing too. His son looked over the moon with joy. The scene looked hard won. I am sad, but guess what, I can't be mad about it. I can't.