appreciation

This could be a long entry. But I won't do that. Last year and year before at this time, I remember being very frustrated with where I was. This year I appear to be in the same position again. However something has changed for the better. It started out with the usual sense of frustration and trying to figure out how to move forward. After much effort, I just decided to surrender to what I was feeling, and low and behold,I realized that what I feared most had no power to move me one way or the other.With that understanding, I was able to breathe out. It was as though the ending I was expecting suddenly was the end of one book and the opening of another. That achieved, old considerations came to the fore and I saw that whatever I choose to do next is simply a matter of deciding. I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to be large and elaborate either. I don't even have to make it a permanent situation. The wash of relief was blissful once known and once I discovered that what I was doing was embracing myself as good enough.