Overwhelmed by it all

Today I am feeling a little down and stressed. But I shall be fine. I am just aware of some things that I want to achieve and some changes are happening and I am trying to juggle everything. I had planned to write yesterday, but I got all caught up with some work and thus, I am only now getting to this entry. I was in a very different mood too. But what is good about this is that I know that I shall be alright. I think that that is big for me. I would say that I used to get into a funk and never really gave myself a space to say, ok, this is how it is at this moment, but it will pass. This year I find that the learning has been largely about myself and coming to terms with things that I sometimes cannot change right away, and more so, aspects of my personality that I have watched almost like an out of body experience, feeling out what a circumstance can make me focus on. My level of dis-satisfaction is something that I embrace now, because i know that it means that I will somehow, some way find a way to produce a shift and a change. What I do know for sure is this sense of discomfort is a huge yes to who I am and want to be. The things that seem like a stack of no's and don'ts over the yes's are all telling me that I see myself and know what I do want. There are things that I can no longer tolerate. My sense of neutrality is all well and good, but shit! Come on now, I also see that I deserve so much better with so much that matters in my life.