being talked about

My last entry was about being talked about. I now presume that I am hearing about myself being talked about again because of everyone being at home in these covid times. This time it was about money. I have always found the challenge between having family with wealth while not having it yourself. It is the weirdest thing. Those around you just assume that you too are wealthy and do not need the things that everyone needs to succeed. But now that I write that, I do not even know whether that is at all true. Who knows why you get rejected from certain things? I remember when I returned from college the first time, I was very gung ho about working for a certain company. I set up my entire portfolio with them in mind. But when I was able to get an appointment with the owner, I came to realize that someone I knew (and actually admired) had also contacted them months before and had gotten the job that I had wanted. My timing was just off. Recently I read about someone whose career decisions just sound perfect. Everything they tried their hands at worked to their advantage. I never felt that way. But I have had great moments, so I can at least say that I am not dispondant. All of that got me to thinking about how lives go or don't go according to plan. Every day is an opportunity to begin again.