Now

Feeling flu...eeee tonight and able to spend some time not thinking about school work or projects...although I did, I had a moment to get a gist of a future project that I would like to do. I had collected a number of images of women last carnival and tonight I saw them done on voille and other filmy materials, in plain white frames. Sometimes I would add a bit of color to define what they were wearing. From seeing these pieces on a white wall in my mind, I formed an idea for the work that I was supposed to do for Jouvert. I will also include a Performance for the show. I have not worked on my own stuff for quite some time, and I got very excited about what I imagined. I may even be able to start as soon as I feel better. I think that I have some netting already.
This is how I shall combat my dirty little demons. I will shore up my highest good. I shall be my cheering squad. I will be my lover and believer and muse and friend.I always have been anyway.
I will talk to myself when I am tired and want to believe that I am stupid and unable to stand on my own two feet, and I shall say....is that all you got? And plow through and do what makes me so damn amazing, because I know that I am amazing.
Before I met him, I was very self contained, but there was this little cancer growing in me telling me that who was I kidding, I could not make such a living with what I believed I wanted to be doing. For a very long time that even seemed to be true.
But guess what?I do not believe that bullshit for a minute anymore.
I am exactly the right person that I am meant to be AT&T is very time,and I will succeed.