Before going to bed tonight, I thought that I would look at Chef's Table on Netflix. I have decided that every day I am going to do something to bring myself joy, and looking at a show that I find edifying and beautiful is a win/win situation. During the show, it dawned on me that sometimes I must remember that life, really well lived lives come from just believing in yourself and in your vision.stop wondering how things are going to work out for example. There are thoughts going through my head all of the time that deal with what I would like to be able to say or to do, and they get restricted by all sorts of distractions.Sometimes its because I am afraid to fail. Failure can really feel like a setback too great to surmount sometimes.It is necessary to see it for what it actually is...a tool for learning to proceed with more information than you began with. AM I teaching my child that life can still be lived with wonder?I have to lead by example. I might bring that across in my work, but I can do so much more. Tonight I am going to go to sleep and ponder on this. I look forward to the answers I get.