Something major

Something major happened this evening. Well, two major things. My daughter got her period! Waw! She got it with me being there, so that was good for her. The other thing was my meeting. I finally had it with the person who hired me to do an eight week Saturday program. Part of the whole thing felt weird, as the things that I understood, and what had been discussed seemed not to gibe at all. This meant that I had to sit and listen and try to pick sense out of what I was hearing. The last time that I went through something like that I was in Scotland. It was so funny. Everyone was talking about all the amazing places they had just gone to,or were about to go to, and who they know in some important circle.It was surreal at the time. What was striking with this meeting was the way that the information was being disseminated.This "project' is a scheme of sorts, and I was brought on in a roundabout kind of way. The person who is co-ordinating it is a bit of a dynamo. She thought she had known me in a different way, so when she approached me, she was very friendly...not knowing that she really didn't know me that well. Anyway, this person has many, many hats in the proverbial fire, and clearly has her hats in the right fires. Her skill base is diverse, and just I had felt when I had visited my ex's home and saw how simple, consistent choices can look like your a genius, I felt that way when she started to speak about all of her achievements. Now, I again, was not envious of her. What I was , as I was with his house was mindful. Mindful of what we all do with what we have and know and consider. What we do with our choices. I know that I would not have made such decisions back then because I took a very different path. What I was looking at then, and was looking at with this person in this meeting, was the fact that perspective is everything. I made a commitment to myself to be resourceful with my own child. Although it is already clear to me that she is very different from me where that is concerned. She is not being brought up as I was. There is a lot more practicality happening in her life by a matter of course. This person's way of seeing was infectious. Clearly she talks and plans and her team seem ready to go. I see a bit of my old self in her. Not this present person who finds herself limping from thing to thing. It took one mis-step to be forever catching up, I have found, and I don't want to be there anymore. This person reminded me of my optimism, my confidence, my vision, and I am so glad for that.