Ok then. So on Christmas day I decided to send out greetings to everyone online. I was surprised when one of the respondents, the one person I wanted to hear from, replied right away. After that, it was ON. Now, I would be lying if I say that I am not feeling much better. Just better for having moved past the soundtrack that I have been playing for months.I also admit that I am now at another apex of the unknown. I am wiser though. The feelings are all still there, as though they were hibernating, which is very true. What am I saying? What is this saying? I see this as me going for something that I want without apology. It is bigger than my desire to protect my good manners. I'm fed up of compromising and feeling frustrated. I am out here on a limb because this is raw and visceral and it is all about how I feel and not about the way that I think.