Living my life like its G O L D E N

When I started this blog all those years ago, who would have thought that it would last this long? When a new year begins, it is inevitable that there is a feeling of optimism that it brings. I feel that way.I can rattle off my plans, and I am apple cheeked about the outcomes. It is actually adorable the way I feel, when I observe it. I realize that all feelings are an amalgam of being 'alive.' It is in fact a privilege to feel them all. It is a feat of humanity to go forth in the world with ones thoughts anchoring their outcomes. When I think about it, nothing is certain. Nothing, and within that, lie the possibilities. The way we live today can be turned on its ear so easily. For example, my daughter is fascinated by tape recorders. She wants to know what they are and how they sound. That's almost hilarious. I remember when that was the only way to get music of my own to listen to. Now the technology is passe. Its so long ago that its like she's asking me about the Gramophone. Time just flips over. Everything changes, and one has no control over anything. Not really. Yet, here we all are. I have gone from terrifying fear of nuclear holocaust to terrifying fear of global warming in one lifetime. Amidst all of that, you have to get up every day. Put one foot in front of the other. Stave off debts and insecurity, and failure and desire and fallibility. Waw! We are all so delicate. Such tiny, insignificant creatures. Yet, we still have so much to conquer. We may be exploring but a fraction of our potential as human beings for example. I have spent all of my adult life reading everything I can about spirituality and self improvement. I have believed and then believed nothing. What I know for certain is that the more I acquire, the less I know, and I am good with that. I am good with dissonance. Lol. This year, I have the opportunity to see what I can do with my mind. Where I can take it, what I can put it through, and how I can propel myself to where I choose to go, and that's golden.