more from before

It is a mind bender to consider that all that is happening is an illusion, even writing this. I saw how I look at the world for right and wrong when nothing actually IS. I used to get caught up with that by asking, but what about those who murder? The answer to that is that people will do things and their are consequences regardless. There are always a million varying choices being made every single day by every one of us. Some produce the lives that we dream about. But no one is exempt from facing challenges. You cannot run from challenges.Life is about living until you die. Why is it that so much of it is spent in such a ball of intensity? I am not doing life'wrong' I am doing life in the vein of my belief systems, expectations, memories and habits. I am as programmed as Photoshop. Lol. As an allegedly highly complex brain, I am made as we have made computers, a product of habit and pattern. I was actually thinking about writing a script about someone who has a death experience and goes through all of the lovely afterlife hase and then after awhile, after they see that they have chosen death and have been dead, they come to a realisation that death is not what they imagined it to be, it is another life and that life is filled with the complexities of dreaming, and it feels like something you can never get out of.no matter how conscious you try to be. In other words, it is a nightmare. I think that I shall explore that concept a bit when I have some time. So I get up this morning. I have had a crazy dream. But I know that it happened because of yesterday and also I am anxious about my next class although I should not be. That was my lesson for the day. Just stop trying to be this person trying to right everything. Just stop,