There is a drive that I have every day now to get certain things done. About ten to fifteen years ago, probably longer, I finally saw how a small movement could start the literal ball rolling. I decided to sell a product along the lines of Amway. This sort of thing is absolutely unappealing to me. But I chose to do it because I was not working at the time and decided instinctively that I would do it because acting would get me into circulation. Lo and behold, it helped me get on with it. Later, with my partner, we would infuse our work with one and two point type affirmations of what we expected for the work and our futures. I have not done that since he died ten years ago and now I am doing it again, but I am not writing it into the work but into my thinking. It has been hard. I miss my closest friend every day. But together we did so much, and those memorie cannot be taken from me.