a think, a think, a think

Recently someone we just met assisted us at home with a computer that my mother has wanted to get stated again for the longest time. She had at least three people visit, who said that the machine was beyond help. The fact that this new person could do the diagnostic and make the machine work produced two responses. First of all, it brings into question the level or lack of professionalism by people who are recommended to you. The second,how many times has this happened before? What have we given up on that we should have pursued? However, this entry is actually about the fact that the technician was going away after he dealt with the computer. He is immigrating to New York. He happened to ask me when I plan to make the big move. He was the second person in less than a week to ask me this. Right now, despite all that is still happening with covid-19, I have been up and about and more and more people are getting back to normal. In that element of 'normal' there is the strange feeling of one foot in and one foot out. Some businesses are open and seem to be optimistic. But there are clear signs that others are closed forever. The most amazing thing is the new businesses that are opening up. It is like watching the changes of season. Naturally the next thing is where I stand within all of this. Most recently the other person who is trying to nudge me to leave, also discussed a large project idea with me. I went on the discuss the idea with the other person he discussed the idea with. In so doing, it felt as though I was on a threshold of something. When I feel that way, it is always exciting. I think that I am super lucky in the fact that I can spend so much time in contemplation about possible futures. I had given less and less thought to doing the whole leaving and going abroad thing. Even though I had discussed it with my sister and paid her to file. Covid happened and it was off the table in my mind. I like that the pandemic shows us all that we can work all over the world. I have so many options and I must make a way to secure myself in some way professionally. I know that I am getting there. I feel impatient, but I am confident.