no....like really

Nothing is denying me my successes BUT myself. By putting this question to myself I see it so plainly. I have had way more than the average person in terms of chances and successes. I have been a child who saw the world. I educated yself while some of my peers chose to have choldren. I got married after everyone else. I divorced while many are going through challenges in their relationships.So when I ask myself these questions and I pause as though I am not in touch with myself, I know that something is up. Something in me is enjoying the victim complex. I am about to go the route of I don't know what to do? When really this is actually about taking that next step into the adventure that I really want and know my life IS and can be.